This morning is all about tissues and tea! When I started my blog I decided that I would be very honest about my experience as a mum and include some of the less shiny happy moments. In this spirit of honesty I can say this morning I had a mini mummy meltdown. Bear with me if this is a bit of a self indulgent post!
I was in charge this morning (as Rolando had an early morning work commitment). The kids were all tired. Sam even snuck back into bed when I wasn’t looking. There was a bit of “just get dressed shouting” on my part. Despite this we got to school and preschool on time, with all the right kit. So far so good.
Just as the door to preschool opened Leo told me he didn’t want to go in. He then clung to my hand and begged me not to leave him. I tried to get him engaged in an activity but as soon as I got up to leave he started to cry. This is really unlike him, apart from his first few days at preschool, he has never been reluctant to stay.
Seeing Leo upset plus a build up of tiredness and general stress (about various things) all merged together into a feeling of being really upset and overwhelmed. I walked home in tears. It is totally normal to have moments when as a parent you feel a bit crap – mine ambushed me unexpectedly this morning.
So here I am with tissues and tea. I’m going to let myself feel a bit rubbish for a few moments. I’ll cross a few things off today’s to-do list to give myself a bit of a break. Then I will put the kettle on again, pull myself together and just keep going!